I rephrase and wrote it again

It is embarrassing that you don’t communicate with others often. Even if you can write essays in Chinese and English and have gone to college, you are still unfamiliar or unable to speak certain sentences without any errors. I want to know the cause of this problem, but I cannot explain it. Maybe people around you can only speak Mandarin or basic English. When I grew up, my peers at school didn't want to communicate with me in English.

When I was a child and teenager, I never thought that one day I would become the bottom of society. Life is so ironic. You never need to worry about the monthly living expenses in China, nor do you have the urge or pressure to have a strong living ability. But in Canada, the situation is completely different. No time to regret! Only time to learn.